its time

its 2:41am
im sitting here
trying to pinpoint the exact moment
that i fell out of love
with my life
ive gone over and over in my heard
the past three or four years
i can remember being a senior in high school
so eager to leave that dull small town
so ready to be away
to be on my own
i remember that first year of college
while challenging it was also exhilarating
everything was new
i could make my own decisions sorta
i had this new sense of independence
i just knew deep down that this is where
i was meant to be
i was absolutely in love with my life
then came that second year of college
i didnt realize at the time
but this is when things starting going down
i struggled with staying motivated
but somehow managed to push forward
now im working on my third year
or i should say
im currently failing my third year
its not my grades i can do the work
im failing because of attendance
stupid attendance policy
but im not happy
at all
i have moments of happiness
instead i want to have moments of sorrow
ive lost my motivation
and its absolutely nowhere to be found
im no longer in love with my life
and ive decided that
im too young not to be happy
its time for a drastic change
im done being the person that everyone
expects me to be
its time to be the person i am
its time to be happy again
its time for me to be that
crazy adventurous insane person
its time for me to make these
outlandish mistakes because thats life
its time for me to live my life
the way i want to
its time

-krista mccuistion.



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