Be You. Be Beautiful.

its 2:41am im sitting here trying to pinpoint the exact moment that i fell out of love with my life ive gone over and over in my heard the past three or four years i can remember being a senior in high school so eager to leave that dull small town so ready to be away to be on my own i remember that first year of college while challenging it was also exhilarating everything was new i could make my own decisions sorta i had this new sense of independence i just knew deep down that this is where i was meant to be i was absolutely in love with my life then came that second year of college i didnt realize at the time but this is when things starting going down i struggled with staying motivated but somehow managed to push forward now im working on my third year or i should say im currently failing my third year its not my grades i can do the work im failing because of attendance stupid attendance policy but im not happy at all i have moments of happiness ins...

Is it worse to have known true love and have it ripped away Or to have never known love at all? -Krista McCuistion.

to the guy who may someday fall in love with me im sorry im such a mess i would like to think that eventually i'll have it all together but im so over lying to myself i know that im this undoable puzzle there are so many pieces to me im a puzzle but not that easy 50 piece puzzle that comes in a box with a picture on the front no im the puzzle that came in a box that didnt have a picture of the final product even worse there have been more than plenty who've attempted to put my pieces together along the journey from one lover to the next  ive lost some pieces others have been stolen and several have been ripped and torn so once again im sorry im such a mess at this point in my life ive decided that its okay not to have all the pieces maybe its better this way but i just want you to know that loving me  will be draining and dreadful i know this i also know that im not really sure if im capable of truly being in love so to the guy...

sometimes  i wish  you would have never said "i love you" because now i know it was  just a lie it was a way for  you to fill the emptiness between us and like a  fool so anxious  to be loved i believed those three little toxic words i guess it's  shame on me for believing that  someone could actually love me but trust me i'll never make that mistake again i've learned my lesson -krista mccuistion.

She's the sweetest girl you'll ever meet until you piss her off. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I would like to say that I used to love you but that would mean that I stopped. The truth is my broken heart still beats for you. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ She's a firecracker in the bedroom but you'll never never find out unless you have the right match to light her up. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ -Krista McCuistion.