this feeling fucking sucks
ive been depressed before and i never thought i could feel worse i was to the point of drinking every day sleeping with multiple guys and never caring what others thought of me but more importantly not even caring about what i truly thought of myself i could not even look at myself in the mirror i hated the person i let myself become and i felt like utter shit but this feeling... this gut wrenching sadness that overcomes me that makes it nearly impossible to breathe this poison i feel that has put thoughts in my head that i have never had before (maybe itd be easier if you just ended it, what would happen if you just swerved a little on the insterstae going 85mph? what if you just started drinking again to drown out the feeling?) this feeling fucking sucks and there are no words that could capture or fully explain what it truly feels likes i lost my sister my best friend the one person on this planet that never judged me the one person who stood by me no matter wh...