Be You. Be Beautiful.

Losing my virginity?? What??!! Like, what does that even mean?? I didn't lose it. It's not like I was walking down the hallway one day and then... "Oh No!! I lost my virginity!!  Where did it go?" Umm...NO! I was of sound mind and body during my first time. It was my choice and a rather rushed one that I may not have been ready for but by no means do I regret it. It was my first time and it wasn't anything sensational. There were no fireworks or sparks so to speak but  it was special in a rather odd way. I was 15 and a freshmen in high school. I was sitting in the lobby after lunch and  he approached me.  He was no Calvin Klein model  but he had this certain charm about him. He reached for my hand and being the naive freshmen I was I welcomed his touch. It was nice the way he wrapped his arm around my waist and lead me to his truck with that warm inviting smile. It was a rush like never before. It was uncomfortable ...

It began as a normal evening. I met him at the park It was about 9pm I climbed into the seat of his red truck Redbull in one hand, iphone in the other His hands on the wheel and we were off. Cruising the back roads Having light conversation and then we were back at the park. Still talking about random things -"Do you have a six pack?"   "Can I see?" -"Can I see your belly ring?"   "That's hot."   "Can I kiss you?" It was awkward and a little uncomfortable at first. His kisses were soft and gentle Not like the kisses I'm used to. He made me feel appreciated. It was nice the way he kissed my inner thighs. He made me smile every time he would lift his lips from mine just so he could sing to me. I've never been with a guy like that. He's nice and sweet. He's a good guy. I'm just not sure if he's the guy for me. -Krista McCuistion.